We made a Decision to Submit our will to the Will of Allah.
“So believe in Allah, whose Names comprise the essence of your being, and his Rasul, the Ummi Nabi, who believes in Allah, the essence of his self, and what He disclosed…” (Quran 7:158)
Welcome to Step 3 of Twelve- Steps program. Don’t forget that each step calls us to take action and focus on ourselves as persons.
I know many people from militia Islamia (12 steps Addiction recovery program) who’ve used Twelve Step programs to recover from their addiction problem. Eating Disorders is a horrid disease with intricate and often complex set of symptoms and characteristics that cut across all flavors of dependency. It takes tremendous strength and courage to reach out for help. Twelve-Step programme is a great adjunct to therapy. According to Riley EA: “There is evidence that eating disorder behaviors are addictive behavior, both from a psychological and physiologic perspective. Use of a 12-step program will assist with the practical details of helping individuals to stop employing self-destructive behaviors as well as provide support and decrease feelings of isolation and depression.”
In addition, the literature and tools that have come out of the Twelve Step world get to the bottom of the problems experienced by many of us.
The basic Twelve-Step principle of replacing one’s ego-driven compulsions with
surrender to a Higher Power, Almighty Allah captures the essence of the general healing process.
The purpose of this step is humility. Step 3 can certainly be a very humbling experience. Admitting that you can’t run your own life is seemingly as low as you can go. As you will discover after working this step, making that admission takes you to the top if you can truly let go and let God. Thy will, not mine be done. Dependence on a higher power leads to independence of the spirit. It grants you freedom from worry, obsession, guilt and regret. God gave us free will. If we give our will back, that leaves us FREE.
The Holy Prophet Muhammad (S) said: “Indeed, humility increases the dignity of one endowed with it. Be humble, and Allah will exalt you.”
Humility is for one who is important and significant and he fears to gain notoriety or to become too great among people. As it was said, “Humble yourself, you will be as a glimmering star to the viewer on the surface of the water even if it is lofty.” We don’t say to an ordinary person, “Humble yourself.” But it is said to him, “Know the value of yourself, and do not place it in the wrong place!”
“Every constructed sense of self (ego) on the earth (corporeal life) is illusory (inexistent). Al-Baqi (eternal, without being subject to the concept of time) is the face (absolute reality) of your Rabb (the meanings of the Names comprising your essence), the Dhul-Jalali Wal-Ikram.” (Quran 55:26-27)
Step 3 is to be practiced. The door can be opened with a key. Willingness is the key. We must let God in, and to do that, our EGO must be released. You only have to be willing to be willing. Any beginning no matter how small is all it takes. Just by being here, you have made a beginning on step 3, because you are looking for an answer outside of your will.
When working step 3, we need to remember to KISS (keep it simple sweetie). Step 3 only requires that we make a decision. It doesn’t require that we actually turn our will and our lives over just yet. Steps 4-9 are the actual turning it over. That takes a lot of pressure off, doesn’t it? Step 3 is about willingness and trust in something outside of ourselves. As we learn how to get out of our Higher Power’s way, our lives will become enriched with a feeling of safety and wellbeing. We thought we could find an easier, softer way. But we could not. With all the earnestness at our command, we beg of you to be fearless and thorough from the very start. Some of us have tried to hold on to our old ideas and the result was nil until we let go absolutely.
“As for those who believe in Allah, the essence of everything, and hold fast unto Him as their essential reality – HU will admit them to grace (rahmah) and bounty (the awareness of the qualities of the Names) and guide them to Himself (enable the observation of their innermost essence) on a straight path (sirat al-mustaqim).” (Quran 4:175)
Different EDA members’ experiences with Step 3
“When I tried to make my will conform with God’s, I begin to use my will rightly. Instead of bombarding my problems with will power, I learned to bring it into agreement with God’s intention for us. Faced with total personal destruction, I became open-minded when it came to spiritual matters. I learned that I needed to quit playing God.” (This is a Big Book quote, actually. We should find and attribute it.)
“For me this step was about making a decision to do things differently. It is the idea of beginning to trust in others/ourselves/higher power, and the relief of not having to do things alone or handle everything.” “At first, I was scared of Step 3 because it seemed like it required me to give myself up somehow, to become less than I was or thought I was. It seemed to be asking me to give up on something I wasn’t quite sure I was done with yet, and in any case I wasn’t really sure I understood what it was asking me to do. What on earth was “my will?” What was “my life?” What was “the care of God?” And what did it mean to “turn over?” In AA, I heard “our will” meant our thoughts and “our lives” meant our actions. I also heard that “G.O.D.” could mean “Good Orderly Direction.” I learned that “to turn over” meant something like “to hand over” or “to let go.” Back in step two, I realized that I trusted in some sort of fundamental healing power. In step three, I decided to let God (Good Orderly Direction for me since I had a deep distrust of religion) guide my thoughts and actions. I realized I wasn’t fundamentally giving up on myself at all. I was giving up on what hadn’t worked. In AA, one often hears the first three steps translated as “I can’t, God can, and I think I’ll let Him.” This conception didn’t quite fit for me, but the basic idea — that my old ways didn’t work, that other ways did work, and that I’d better trust the ideas that worked for me with everything I thought and did–really did work for me. Step Three is a great place to apply that old adage, “Take what you can use and leave the rest.”
“If we’re open-minded enough to work WITH the world instead of AGAINST it, our lives transform. Feelings don’t disappear, but become bearable, when we keep the bigger picture in mind. Instead of WILLFULLY trying to force others to fit our plans, we find the WILLINGNESS to be useful to the world. Instead of bargaining for little advantages over others, we discover moments of true connection. What does that mean for you?
Working step 3 Helps you Find Out.
“I knew the depression, the suffering. I did not know what else there was. I hadto take a leap of faith, that where I was going to go, without food, without disease, would be better than where I was. I kept saying, Ill try it, for I have nothing to lose. I can always go back. And, so many times I did. But eventually, I got tired. Tired of the back and forth, and I took the leap…and with the leap came trust. Trust that if I managed to live in reality without the escape of my disease for just one day, I could do it another. Trust that if things were better one day, they could be even better the next. Trust that if I could be really good at being sick, I could be even better at being healthy!!!”
“Step 3 is a continuous process. It is a MAJOR move down the path of recovery. You know that your life is a mess because of your eating disorder. You know your Higher Power can make it better. Now, it’s time to “Let Go, Let God”. I have found this step to be both terrifying and freeing. It is very hard. I think I stayed sick for so long because letting go is really scary. It is letting go of the only life. I’ve ever known. It is letting go of the self-created daily misery and personal hell. However horrible your eating disorder has made your life, somehow it is serving you or you would not have it. Step 3 doesn’t happen all at once. It is a continual process. At first it requires much conscious effort to let go and turn things over to the care of your Higher Power. It feels awkward. You may question yourself and your motives, asking which voice is yours and which belongs to the eating disorder. The eating disorder is tricky, so remember to KISS (Keep It Simple Sweetie!).”
“We’re not alone in this. We’re neither in total control, nor are we helpless victims of what life throws at us. Our Higher Power guides us, when we’re willing to listen. Higher Powers come in all shapes and sizes. Traditional ideas of God or Goddess work for some people. Moral or ethical ideals work for others. Your “caring for friends, family, and yourself,” your “hope for a better world,” or “dreams of learning to live a useful, independent life” can be your Higher Power. Whatever works. During Step 3 we offer ourselves to this, our own Higher Power. We allow our Higher Power to teach us and to build with us. We learn to free ourselves from the bondage of fearful self-centeredness, amoment at a time. We discover the joy of pure experience and of being a humble and loving, small but important part of a greater Good. Faith does not mean trading our manipulating for being manipulated by a stronger, more powerful Being. Faith means challenging the very ideas of selfish manipulation and of living in constant competition. Instead of fighting for personal gain, we learn to cooperate.”
“After we realized we were powerless over our ED and admitted, “Houston….we have a problem,” we gradually came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. Next, we need to take action and turn our lives over to the care of God as we understand him / her. This is where I find myself often, for sometimes I’m not willing to give up all of the components of my ED. Some of my character defects may be harmful but they’re as comfy as an old slipper or an old threadbare shirt that you just hate to throw away So I re-visit Step 3 a lot. There are many areas of my life to turn over to God….not just food.
The Twelve Steps are a way of life for all aspects of life. Maybe I’m arguing with my boss and I need to let go and let God take the helm….but I want to do it “My Way.” That is silly, of course. When I prayerfully give my concerns over to God things go much more smoothly. But I am very stubborn! So Step 3 and I are very well acquainted. That is okay. It is important to remember that all 12 of these steps are not something you do once, sit back, and say “I’m done”. Along your recovery path you will find yourself re-visiting them again and again. That is a sign of strength. It is like everytime you use a muscle it grows stronger. Every time you use a Step, your recovery grows stronger.” “Even when I don’t FEEL willing, I can pray for the willingness to become willing.” “The third step… I’ve heard it said that the third step is the cornerstone of all of the other steps. It is the foundation on which to continue to do the courageous work of forging ahead in peeling off the mask of protection by accepting and giving a voice to the authentic self. In adding my input about the third step I will inevitably borrow from disciplines and sources of inspiration that have gone before me: the Big Book and Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of Alcoholics Anonymous, psychology, sociology, social work, theology… ad infinitum… One of the greate st phrases that I’ve heard said in relationship to the third and the eleventh step is that by moving ahead in recovery I am opening up myself to the sunlight of the spirit. That is a wonderful visual for me considering that when I am really deep in my disease I have the drapes drawn, the television on, the lights out, and my face in the refrigerator or the toilet. Exchanging that for the sunlight of the spirit feels awe inspiring, welcoming and frightening.” “Trust is hard when you don’t know what you are trusting. I had to invent my own God, so I could know Him better. It was hard to let go of my old concepts, but once I got to know my own God, this step was much easier. Now, even though events may not unfold exactly as I want, I know I’ll be ok either way. Practicing, step 3 has allowed me to learn flexibility.”
“…We are closer to him (within the dimensions of the brain) than his jugular vein!” (Quran 50:16)
Step 3 Activities
Write quickly and freely. Do not edit, censor or review your writing.
Re-reading your writing after a few weeks or months is okay. Doing these activities again in a few weeks or months is ok too. You will be amazed at the growth you see! Try to set a time limit for yourself at the end of each day, say 15 minutes. If you want to write more, great! But sometimes “more” is like binge thinking. Try to stay calm when you think and write. Start a new question the next day, and don’t go back until you have finished them all, even if you are unsatisfied with your writings. Try to give yourself a deadline, and don’t spend too much time here on step 3. Two to four weeks spent on these activities is plenty. Remember steps 1, 2 and 3 are daily steps. You will be repeating these steps often, so don’t worry too much about form and style. Remember: You don’t need to find “perfect” answers. If what you’re doing doesn’t feel “good enough, “it is your disease talking. Relax. It’s okay. Let the following questions help with your Step 3 explorations. Use them as suggestions for your journaling. It is also important to write about whatever else they bring up. Even if you are not thrilled with your work, go on to another question the next day. Trust that your Higher Power will remind of things you need to be thinking about and let it go
Answer the following:
1. How stubborn are you? Do you hold on no matter what, even if you know you are wrong? Give an example.
2. How has the need to control been important in your sickness and recovery?
3. How do you think letting go of control over how things turn out will make you feel?
4. Is it hard for you to ask for help? When? Why?
5. Are you willing to trust fully in a Higher Power, letting go of outcomes?
1. Observe your perfectionism in action. Notice when you’re getting angry at expectations or being disappointed. Write about time when you’ve been inflexible and perfectionistic.
2. Are you willing to utterly question your past and present attitudes about food, eating, exercise, and body image? What are you willing to accept? What are you willing to change?
3. How do you know you’re rebelling unnecessarily? Where in your body do you feel that? What feelings do you have when it seems you must rebel?
What would it be like to find a way in the middle, compromising between your needs and those of others, honoring and respecting both?
7. Just to emphasize the difference between deciding and acting on the decision, share about two decision in your life that were not carried out and one decision that was carried out. The examples should be related to our disease and the 12 step program.
8. Read the third step prayer again. Write your own third step prayer. Go to someplace special to you and read it aloud. Make an effort to memorize this prayer, and use it in your times of struggle.
Welcome to the end of (the beginning of) step 3! Congratulations!
Remember this is a daily process; it doesn’t have to be perfect! Post your responses or journaling on the discussion board to share your experience strength and hope with the rest of the fellowship. You are now ready to move onto step 4. It is very important to have a sponsor or guide throughout this process of working the steps. Use the discussion board, go to meetings, or get an online sponsor to help you on this journey. Remember, the program works if we work it!