Go Away Demon of Eating Disorder- Ascension to Heaven- Make 27th Rajab Your Night

Al Isra wal Miraj- Ascension to Heaven

 

I am never going to recover from my Eating Disorder, I’ve given up hope of recovery is a desperate cry from the heart of many, stuck in the depths of dark world of Eating Disorder. I rarely, if ever, heard people talk about Eating Disorders in Muslim culture. If they did, it was usually whispered about in family circles and behind closed doors, thus further isolating the sufferer and making the recovery even harder.

Dear Readers,

Eating disorders causes serious shifts in mood, energy, thinking, and behavior. It’s  difficult to live with an illness that is so controlling and so evil. A severe case of eating disorder is when a person spends their entire day engaged in behaviors to satisfy the needs of the demon of eating disorder from binging/purging to restricting  to over exercising. When they are not engaged in such behaviors, they are spending remainder of their time battling extreme depression, anxiety and guilt.

Eating Disorders interferes with  day to day activities. It makes you feel anxious, fearful and tense. There are also other  unpleasant physical symptoms, for example, thumping heart (palpitations), sick feeling in your stomach, shaking (tremor), sweating, dry mouth, chest pain, headaches, fast breathing, etc. Many sufferers feel emotionally numb and detached from others. Future looks bleak and dark, they also lose interest in activities which they used to enjoy.

I don’t feel like praying!

Some sufferers find it very difficult to pray and feel their mind is all over the place. I remember falling into despair and thinking, you can never recover from an eating disorder, it’s a horrible dark world and you’re simply trapped in this nightmare with no way out. Let me tell you something giving up hope of recovery is displeasing to Allah. Allah said there is a cure for every disease except death. Last week I blogged about a Christian Mother whose daughter made a stunning recovery from her Eating Disorder in One night. Don’t despair Allah’s mercy, surely there’s ease after every hardship.

I rarely, if ever, heard people talk about depression. If they did, it was usually whispered about in quiet circles and behind closed doors – See more at: http://www.prodigalmagazine.com/darkness-hides/#sthash.k8yufRxh.dpuf

Do not let your soul be troubled by the demon of Eating Disorder- A Blessed Night of Rajab is Coming, and then another blessed night will come in Shaban and then Allah the most beneficent and the most Merciful will bless you with a whole Month of Ramadan.

 

Eating Disorder makes you despair of Allah’s Mercy

Someone suffering from Eating Disorder typically loses interest in life, experiences a sense of overwhelming dread, has terrifying obsessive fearful thoughts, and also panic attacks, insomnia, guilt, confusion, anger, and a dozens of other disturbing symptoms. A person suffering from Eating Disorder also tends to loose the ability to feel God’s presence, cannot feel that God is closer to him then his own jugular vein, and can no longer feels God’s love and mercy. Praying, reading Qur’an, going to mosque, doing Dhikr, being around your loved ones feels almost physically painful. They want to recover but at the same time they are petrified of letting go of this disordered world.

The longer one lives with this illness the more darker their world becomes, instead of finding comfort in the prayer and spiritual practices, their mind usually becomes occupied with self-loathing, self-destructive, self-obsessed thoughts. How sad and heart breaking is that? 

There are days when I also fall into a state of melancholy,  I feel my mind is going numb and something heavy is crushing my soul, my spirit, my heart, but then I think of Allah, and I think of all the Prophets He sent down for our guidance and how none of them were able to escape hardships and adversaries.

 

Eating Disorder Nightmare…. Allah no longer cares?

 

So many people fear that they have let Allah down in some major way, wondering if they have stepped outside His will by disobeying Him. Let me tell you that you are disobeying Allah if you continue to live with your Eating Disorder, you have to take care of yourself and seek treatment for your illness.

Allah will answer your desperate prayers- He sees what his servant is going through and Allah cares and Loves us deeply, after all He created us and breathed into us.

 

Allah has not abandoned us….Recognise that the demon of Eating Disorder is deceiving us

When stuck in the midst of this destructive cycle of Eating Disorder, we need to recognize this demon is giving us a distorted perception of life and Allah. Eating Disorder  completely distort our world view and belief in Allah. So many people fall into the error of thinking that while things are going well,  Allah must be with them, but when their world falls apart, they think Allah has abandoned them. Nothing could be further from the truth. Firstly, the Qur’an assures us:

 

“Your Lord has not forsaken you, nor has He become displeased. And surely what comes after is better for you than that which has gone before. And soon will your Lord give you so that you shall be well pleased.” Surah Ad-Duha [verses 3-5]

“Your Lord has not forsaken you, nor has He become displeased. And surely what comes after is better for you than that which has gone before. And soon will your Lord give you so that you shall be well pleased.” Surah Ad-Duha [verses 3-5]

– See more at: http://www.mamavitalicious.com/2011/05/has-allah-forsaken-me.html#sthash.eHKAgRkH.dpuf

Secondly, Allah Says in the Holy Quran Chapter 2 Surah Baqarah Verse 286:

  On no soul doth Allah place a burden greater than it can bear.

We will face trials, and Allah will use these for good in our lives, and He will guide us through them. The mercy of Allah is there, the blessings of Allah are all around us,  we cannot see it because of the demon of Eating Disorder.

Do Not Trust this Demon

Bearing in mind that eating disorder gives us distorted perception of life and those around us, please remind yourself that that you cannot trust your feelings nor pay them any heed – they are tricking and misleading you.  What may work for a healthy person does not apply to someone suffering from Eating Disorder. You need to learn not to place any significance on what you are feeling, and accept that till you approach recovery and are fully recovered, you may remain in this condition for a while. But be encouraged, this phase does not last forever. Inshallah your feelings will return to normal.

 

My Dear Brothers and Sisters, blessed night will soon be here.  Monday is the night of 27th Rajab.

On the 27th night of Rajab, Prophet Muhammad PBUH had a beautiful most unique experience in the history of all religions. The Prophet PBUH, accompanied by Angel Gabriel was taken for Night Journey (ISRA) from Mecca to Aqsa Mosque in Jerusalem.  There he led a congregation of the souls of all the earlier Prophets.

The Prophet PBUH proceeded from there to the Divine Proximity. The Prophet PBUH had the Vision of God, Lord of the Universe. Five obligatory prayers were ordained by the way of Thanksgiving. The Prophet PBUH was brought back to the earth and to his own place before the Dawn prayers in the same night.***

How lucky are we to receive this chance to connect with Allah  and  to pray for our recovery and healing? Allah listens to all our prayers. Do not allow the demon of Eating Disorder to take this blessed night away from you. Lock him away and throw away the key. This is your night to pray, to do Dhikr, to seek forgiveness, to tell Allah how much you love Him and if your health allows then to fast the next day.

 

How to Spend this Blessed Night?

This is a night of great significance because it is a night of great rewards, blessings and bounties of God.

Nafl Prayers- Hafiz Ibn Hajar Makki says that a Hadith Marfoo’ from Hazrath Anas Radi Allahu ‘anhu has reached us “That there is a night in Rajab in which one who acts to worship will have written righteousness and Hasanath (good deeds) for a period of 100 years. And this is the 27Th night of Rajab. One should pray 12 Raka’ats in this night divided by 6 cycles of 2 Raka’ats and after finishing should recite 100 times Subhan allahi Wal Hamdu Lillahi Wa Allahu Akbar, then say Astaghfirullah 100 times followed by Durood (salawaat) 100 times followed by supplications for ones affairs and fast in the morning then Allah will accept all of his supplications and prayers. And in another narration Allah will erase the sins of 60 years.

Tasbeeh- Send Darood on Prophet Muhammad (pbuh)

Keep your Ablution- Stay in Wudu throughout the night.

Seek Forgiveness- It is highly recommended to repeat ‘Astaghfirullaah wa as-aluhut tawbah’ and you can also recite Astaghfirulah on your tasbeeh. 

Sadaqa and Charity– Give Sadaqa and Charity- there is a big reward for sadaqa and charity in the month of Rajab. Those who cannot fast may give sadaqa to the poor every day, or recite ‘Subhana Ilalahil Jaleele Subhana Man la Yanbaghil Tasbeeho Illa Lahoo; Subhanal A`azzinil Akrame; Subhana Man Labisal Izza wa Howa Lahoo Ahlun.

 

Pray Salatul Tasbeeh- For forgiveness of all sins.  (How to perform this prayer, follow this link: http://www.islamicacademy.org/html/Articles/English/Salat_Tasbih.htm)

Dhikr Dhikr… Do as much Dhikr Remembrance of God as you can. Repeat ‘Laa ilaaha illa-Allah’ 1000 times.

Read Qur’an. Read as much Qur’an as you can.

Pray 2 Nafl Hajjat for recovery and tell Allah that you want health, freedom from the demon of Eating Disorder and ask Him to guide you in seeking treatment for your eating disorder.

Dua…for the well being of yourself and all the fellow human beings.