Dear Readers This E-mail was sent to me by Polly Mertens- My last post covered Danielle’s inspiring recovery journey from Bulimia- Below is an update of her story one year later and it makes you so happy to see her doing so well. I thought I’ll share this with you. To read Danielle’s story click here: Danielle’s story
Hope you had a wonderful and very merry Christmas. I can’t believe this was my 2nd year abstinent!!!!
It’s now been over a year and few months that I began my recovery, which was August 1, 2011.
Wow, it’s amazing to realize that’s how long it’s been.
It’s gone by quickly, but as I look back there have been sooooo many ups and downs. What an incredible journey, and I’m still traveling.
Reflecting back on where I was in my recovery last year versus this year is really quite incredible… last year I was in a very new and “insecure” relationship and fell off my self-prescribed “no sugar” wagon right at Christmas. I continued to stay off the wagon and went from not having any sweets for 3 months before the holiday, to having many treats all the time afterward and for several months after.
My relationship fizzled out soon after the holiday, but it’s literally taken me up until recently to feel better with my approach to food. I’m still working on it, but I really did learn a lot about myself.
On Aug 1, 2011, I was initially very strict in my abstinance, not allowing myself sweets or anything I considered a trigger. After the holiday slip, I decided to throw all caution to the wind and just let myself eat… everything! lol. I really let myself go with all the sweets I wanted and faced my fat fears. I let myself even overeat and feel full and uncomfortable, and most importantly, did NOT purge! I just let myself be full, uncomfortable, and dealt with it.
After months of allowing myself to have all the binge/trigger foods I wanted, I finally started to feel the urge to get more “healthy” and put myself on a 4 week sugar free goal, just to give my body a break and feel sound of mind again. I am just wrapping up my last week of this sugar free period, allowed myself a break on Christmas Day,and realized for the first time in ages that I’m a very strong and awesome being!
Anyone can do this.
It feels good to know how food affects me and my brain,and realize that sugar and sweets were really affecting my emotions.
I want to take what I’ve learned into next year and finally let sweets be just a treat, and not the primary base of my diet, but also not punish myself for enjoying all the wide variety of foods that this world has.
Yes, food does matter but it is not who I am!
What I eat does make me feel good or bad and I want to always feel good. With that said, I learned over the last few months that I can choose to eat whatever I want and deal with the consequences – eating sweets all the time is fine, but I felt like crap. Eating protein focused meals makes my brain function better and my body feel better, and I think in the end that matters a lot.
Happy tastes better than anything! I’m happy when my body, mind and spirit are all in sync.
Looking forward to next year, and keep in touch. You are such an angel in my life!
Much love and peace,